I am a Spirit…

I wrote this last summer when I was in a slump. I had no passion and no motivation. I was spending 12 hours a day on my computer playing games, watching videos, hoping to find some kind of stimulation.

I was so down and out that I went on google and searched, “How to find your true purpose in life” and I found an article that resulted in the following answers.

I had typed out about 60 answers before I arrived at what I have below, but they were all random answers that didn’t have any substance. I typed for about 10 minutes straight and these were my answers (no edits).

written July 16th, 2009:

What is my true purpose in life?

to constantly know my purpose

to know why I am alive

to know my direction

to constantly know who I am and wha ti stand for

to not compromise who I am

to live according to who I know I am

to change myself for the better

to leave behind the things that hinder me from being myself

to leave behind the things that keep me from living

to leave behind the things that keep me from who I am to become

to leave behind the things that distract me from living for a one goal

to have a focused burn

to burn passionately for one thing

to be alive

to be filled with hope

to be filled with joy

to be fully filled

to be estatic with praise

to see God to encounter him all the time

to commune with him all the time

to walk with him

to know him like enoch

to know him like adam

to know him like my flesh

toknow who he made me to be

to know what is store for

to know the best for me

to know His best for me

to know wha ti need to know to walk in who I am

to be who I am and no one else

to be satisfied with the process

to have the peace that surpasses understanding when I don’t understand

to be filled and overflowing with the spirit

to never hinder the flow of the Spirit through me to walk in the revelations that have bene given to me

to be bold

to be fearless

to have an unshakable unbreakable faith

to realize that the spirit realm is more real than the natural

to see in the spirit

to see what is real

to differentiate whwat is real aand what is more real

to be able to show other people what I know for the sake of them finding their purpose

to not be lost

to know where I am and know where I am going

to have direction to know where I am stepping next

ot have a confidence in Him that I can’t understand

to beable to live from heaven toward earth

to steward my life and my time as I am called to

to be the best I can be all the time

to be free

to be filled

to be on fire

to set others on fire

to cause people to burn

to cause people to find their purpose

to show people how to find their purpose

to jump into storms and stop them

to be a revivalist

to be a world changer

to be an earthshaker and mountain mover and waterwalker and windcatcher and firebreather and a timestopper spacetraveler

to defy gravity

to travel faster than light

to see sound waves

to hear colors

to have supernatural hearing

to have supernatural senses to hear God

to hear Him clearly

to be able to discern His voice from my own

to be able to follow through with what he says

to live with the joy set before me in any circumstance

to be blessed and be a blessing

to find more than 24 hours in a day

to be a friend of god

to walk with Jesus

to surpass God’s expectations

to be alive

to not be satisfied with temporary victories/breakthroughs/feelings

to live from eternity

to live for eternity

to walk in eternity

to steward eternity

to know my authority

to wlak in my authority grow in stature and favor with God and man

to highly esteem everyone

to honor all

to love those who don’t deserve it to be loved

to know the heart of God

to be free

to not care what others think

to have wisdom beyond Solomon

to be a more radical lover than david

to have more strength than Samson

to do greater things as  jesus prophesied

to become breakthrough for others

to know how much power I have

to know what weapons are available

to see where I should be

to see where I am to see where others should be

to move in love

to speak in love

to correct in love

to love myself

to love as Christ loved

to love all

to love God

to have a single love

to have a focused love

to have a great love

to have an agape love

to above all, love to have love as my standard in everything I do

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I used refer back this and read it to myself when I caught myself with a lack of passion and a lack of direction.

I would encourage you to write your own mission statement, sum up who you are in a directional “life statement.” If you can have your vision in front of you, you will never waste time doing something you aren’t called to do, or something you aren’t passionate about.

Here is a mission statement from Travis, one of our students.

“ Write the vision
And make it plain on tablets,
That he may run who reads it.

Habakkuk 2:2

Stuff I’ve been reading/watching: Jason’s Blog, Chris’ Blog, David’s blog

Kris Vallotton – False Prophets

Dealing with Curses

Jaren’s youtube channel – our friend blowing it up in Georgia

On Saturday, we brought a crew of ~15 people to a Pre-Call rally in San Jose. I arrived at the meeting near the very end, so I missed the worship and message.

At the end, Kurt told everyone that we were going to hit the bars, to put their money where their mouths were. After that, Dennis spent 5 minutes preaching on being revival rather than praying for it.

When the service was over, a bunch of us split up and started healing people and growing legs out. BOOOM is this not the revival everyone has been praying for?

After the service, about 20-30 of us hit the bars/nightclubs in downtown San Jose.

I was Travis most of the time, and the first person we spoke with was a guy who worked in a parking ticketing booth. I asked him if he had any injuries or any health problems in his body and he said “yea.”

“Is it your knee?”

“Yea.”

“Your right one?”

“Yea.”

“Does it hurt right now?”

“Yea, when I stand up…”

“Here give me your hand.”

He gave me his hand, I commanded the pain to go in Jesus’ name and had him test it out. After ~3 times, he said most of the pain was gone. He was very interested in what we were doing and at one point, he asked, “So are you guys practicing your abilities on me?”

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Later, Travis approached two young guys who were sitting and waiting by the train station. Travis asked them if they needed any healing in their body and they asked why. I said that we were healers.

One of them asked, “How do you do that?”

“Well, I just command whatever it is that’s bothering you to ‘go’ and it goes.”

The guy didn’t buy it, but then I asked, “Why would I lie about this?”

That made him think. He eventually told us that his back was hurting and after we prayed, all the pain was gone. I don’t remember much that happened after that.

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Later I saw a big black guy walking nonchalantly in our direction. As he came near I said, “Heeeyy” and put my hand up to high-five him. He responded and I asked him how he was doing. He said he was doing ok, and then I saw he had a huge white cross on his shirt.

“Dude, I like your shirt”

“Yea?”

I asked him if he needed a miracle in his life and if he needed healing in his body.

“Mmm.. yeah.”

“Is it your shoulder?”

He paused, “Uh-uh.”

Pointing to his right shoulder I said, “Is it this one?”

“Nah, it’s this one.”

“Oh, man, what happened?”

He said he injured it playing sports  a few years ago. So I said, “Here, check this out.” I put my hand on his shoulder and commanded the pain to go. As I was about to stop, he said, “Hey why don’t you pray that over my whole body?” I spoke healing over his entire body and then some other stuff in his life I was feeling he needed.

He said that it was a divine appointment and thanked us greatly.

We moved on, and two Indian guys who were just hanging out caught my eye. I looked at them and the guy on the right had a small bandage on his right middle finger. I interrupted their conversation and said, “Hey! What happened to your finger?”

“Huh? Oh, I just cut it.”

“Does it hurt?”

“Yea, a little.”

“Here, let me see your hand.” I motioned him to give me his hand because he seemed a little hesitant. He gave me his hand and I grabbed his finger.

“Pain, GO. Be healed right now…. check it out”

“Mmm… it’s a little…”

“So you still have some pain?”

“Yea.”

“Here, one more time. Cut, be healed, pain GO, 100 percent.”

He checked it again and he was surprised. All the pain was gone. He finally said, “How did you do that?”

I proceeded to preach Jesus, but the moment I mentioned “Jesus” his whole countenance changed. He was probably offended at first, and then confused, and then realized that what I was saying made a lot of sense. I told him how Jesus didn’t die so that people could “go to church” or sing songs and play games. I told him how every believer should be able to do what I just did with his finger.

He agreed, was impressed, and thanked me for telling him what I told him. Meanwhile, the whole time Travis was ministering to his friend right next to him who had neck  pain and was completely healed by the time I finished talking to my guy. They both thanked us for being simple and honest.

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If you didn’t notice, I didn’t pray “in Jesus name” when they got healed. “Jesus’ name” is NOT a magic word. I am going IN His name, by His authority. You don’t need to pray “in Jesus name” for someone to get healed.

There is biblical premise for saying “in Jesus’ name” but there are also many instances that it was not used.

It is more a matter of who is speaking, not what is being said. (contact me if you don’t think I gave sufficient reasoning)

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Travis and I kept moving, and we passed two Latino guys standing outside a bar. I thought that one guy had a crossed-eye so I went back to introduce myself. We ended up making some conversation and one of them got healed of shoulder pain and tenderness in the fingers.

One was very interested in what we were doing and I swapped some contact info and he said he would call me if he could arrange to gather some sick people.

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There were 3 groups we approached after, that turned us down.

One of them was a guy who was a double amputee. We didn’t really get turned down, but he was on a move so we didn’t bother. It was a mixture of that and a flat out lack of confidence on my part. I’m not too worried though, because I’ve seen him on the streets multiple times.

Another was a group of ~10 Latinos sitting outside a restaurant. Travis boldly told all of them that he was a healer and if anyone was sick he would heal them. Most of them looked at him weird and shook their heads.

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A bit later, I saw another young black guy sitting by himself at a different part of the train station. I casually introduced myself and then asked if he had any pain or sickness in his body. He asked if I was going to pull a trick and I said “no,” so he asked how I was going to do it.

Just like the previous time, I explained that I was simply going to command whatever the pain was to ‘go,’ and it would leave. He didn’t buy it, so I told him that he had nothing to lose and I asked, “Why would I make this up?”

He thought about it and then told me that his feet were hurting. I asked for his hand and then commanded the pain to go. I told him to stand up and he was blown away. I spoke with him for about 15-20 minutes and he told me about himself. Eventually he told me that he wanted to help out people with STD’s and fund research for that stuff.

I said, “Really? Dude, hook me up with those people. We haven’t had much of an opportunity to see those people healed because we haven’t met any.”

He ended up confessing that he had herpes, so I got to kick that out of his body (no, not literally). He really enjoyed hanging out, so we swapped contact info. He said he was interested in our house church group, so hopefully he’ll show up!

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I am so glad I took a break from the testimonies!

I wrote a post about having “great” faith a few weeks ago. That post was more about having the faith of God rather than having faith in God.

Having the faith of God is like what He did when He created the world. He said, “Let there be light,” and there was light. God knew that what he said would be accomplished. Having the faith of God is knowing that what you say WILL happen.

The faith of God is the same faith that moves mountains (Mark 11:23). And in the context of the article I wrote previously, understanding and functioning in authority [like the Roman Centurion] is exercising the faith of God.

And since we have the same spirit of faith, according to what is written,“I believed and therefore I spoke,” we also believe and therefore speak…
-  2 Corinthians 4:13

To exercise the faith of God, you first believe, and because you believe, you speak. You do not speak so that you believe. If you are confessing something that the Word says so that you can believe, that is called renewing your mind, that is not declaring in faith.

You declare as a result of having believed. You first believe that what you say will happen, and as a result, you speak [to the mountain].

Walking in the faith of God is really only for the purpose of destroying the works of the enemy, like when you declare, “You’re healed,” “Be cleansed,” “every work of the enemy fails, NOW.”

You first believe that you have all authority, and that what you say will be done. THEN, you speak it like a king that is decreeing an ordinance.

On the flip-side, having faith in God, is for the purpose of acquiring promises for yourself (Hebrews 6:12)… so how do you have faith that acquires promises?

Here are 2 simple examples…

Abraham:

And not being weak in faith, he did not consider his own body, already dead (since he was about a hundred years old), and the deadness of Sarah’s womb.

He did not waver at the promise of God through unbelief, but was strengthened in faith, giving glory to God, and being fully convinced that what He had promised He was also able to perform.
- Romans 4:19-20

So how do you not be “weak in faith?”

• do not consider your physical circumstance (2 Cor 5:7)

How do you “not waver” in faith, like it says in James 1:6?

• be fully convinced that He is able to do what He promised

Simple as that. As a result of his faith, Abraham was accounted righteous.

Sarah:

By faith Sarah herself also received strength to conceive seed, and she bore a child when she was past the age, because she judged Him faithful who had promised.
- Hebrews 11:11

How do you get into the “hall of faith” like Sarah?

• judge Him faithful, count Him faithful
• when you count Him faithful, you count His Word faithful
• when you count His Word faithful, that’s faith

Simple.

Count God faithful in what He has promised and that he is able to perform what He has said He will do.

This is why you need to get into the Word and find out what has been promised. How can you put faith in what you don’t know? Get in the Word. It is NOT a religious exercise. It is getting to know the heart of God towards you and world (Matt 12:34).

Get into the Word. It is not about getting to know “words” it is about getting to know the Author and finisher of your faith.

This is one of the testimonies from last night with one of our students, Travis (First day of school!):

So tonight i got my real first hand experience of what the true kingdom in perspective really looks like. We went to a place called wings-stop and just brought the kingdom. tonight this is what we saw.

Basically the whole store got ministered too.

~all the staff were healed we grew out all of their legs back pain eradicated

~one staff member had just come out of knee surgery and she was COMPLETELY healed

~we preached the gospel and saw many people touched

~grew out some more legs and healed back pain

~Best part of the night for me was there were three guys who were sitting on a bench we went over to them and talked to them and asked them if we could grow out their legs they all said no but then we asked one of them if he had back pain he said yes so he said it was alright if we prayed for them.

Prayed for the one guy his name was mike and he was completely healed after his leg grew out he had no more back pain it was so legit. Then after seeing this miracle they both let us pray for them and one of their legs grew out as well it was amazing! we got to minister to them for about 1\2 an hour after that and they got completely rocked so good being a Christian walking in complete freedom is something that is truly incredible.

~we took the place over for the kingdom and got no opposition people were healed and shown the true nature of Jesus Christ our king and our lord. We need to wake up and be the Saviour that the world is calling out for. time to go out and heal

if your nights are boring go to the wings place and change some lives and bring the kingdom

Matthew 10:7-8

Here is a testimony from Ki from his workplace:

Work:

I was sitting at my bench in the chemistry lab doing some work and my co-worker, Alex, comes in asking about my trip to San Diego. I took a deep breath and realized I had to tell him I was in San Diego healing people at a large outreach event.

“I went around healing people”
“what?”
“I prayed for people and they got healed”
“You mean, you did some kind of medical work with people?”
“No, I just prayed for them and they got healed.”

After a few more exchanges of this, I knew he wouldn’t really understand so I stopped the conversation and asked him to come to the office with me.  In the nearest empty office, I checked his legs and found that his left leg was about 2 cm shorter than the other one.

I told him I was going to grow out his leg to be even with the other and he responded with a weird look and said “okaay” pretty sarcastically.  I commanded it to grow in Jesus name and it came out.  He said he felt it grow and gave me some more weird looks.

I told him that if he had any back pain, he should have them a lot less now because they’re usually the result of uneven legs.  After I said this, he mentioned our other co-worker, Joanne, usually has a lot of back pain, so I went and brought her to the office and I grew her legs out as well with Alex watching.

She didn’t have back pain at the time, but told me she wished I was there last week to pray for her back.  We decided to get my other co-worker, Jackie, and ended up also bringing her into the office.  I checked her legs and saw they were noticeably off, much more than Alex or Joanne’s legs.

She knew they were uneven and jokingly laughed after I told her I was going to grow out her shorter leg (She is an atheist and believes in nothing supernatural, or now, I should say believed).  I commanded it to grow and it came out pretty fast while both Alex and Joanne were watching pretty closely.

As Jackie sat there somewhat perplexed, I asked Alex how his sinuses and lungs were (he was coughing and sniffling a lot).  I put a couple of fingers on his throat and commanded his sinuses and lungs to clear up and told him to take a few breaths. After breathing in and out a few times clear of congestion, he looked at me surprised and asked, “How did you do this?”

For the next 40 minutes I preached the good news to them.  I explained I was able to heal because the creator of the universe, Jesus, dwells in me, and when I speak, I speak with His authority and whatever is in violation of His will must obey.

I preached what church really was and what it was not.  I told them I don’t go to church, but I am the church 24/7 and apologized for all the hypocritical Christians that act one way on Sunday and another way Monday through Saturday.  I told them God is not an angry God, but loves everyone, believers and unbelievers alike, and desires to be in communion with them.  I explained the full meaning of the sacrifice of Christ and what it now means for them.

After I finished, Jackie sat there, staring at the ground repeating, “this doesn’t make sense, this doesn’t make sense.”  It was the first time she had seen anything supernatural, and to a purported atheist, I am sure none of what she saw would make sense!  However, both Alex and Joanne believed my words.  Moments later, Alex mentioned hanging out with me more and visiting his brother who is suffering from a severe autoimmune disease.

About 30 minutes later, lunch time came and everyone sat together pretty quiet in the kitchen eating and thinking about what just happened (I assumed).  Another one of my co-workers, Oro, came in and I grew his leg out as well and then asked if he had any pain anywhere else. He told me his left knee, so I hit it a few times and almost all the pain completely left (a few days ago he told me there was no pain at all).  After Oro sat down from checking his knee, Jackie asked, “What if someone got shot?  What about the bullets?”

“It doesn’t matter, the bullets will disappear or come out.”

“What??”

She asked me a few more questions, and I told her anything that is wrong and not supposed to be there can be healed.  To test me some more, she mentioned her neck was actually kind of aching.  I said okay, and walked over to her and put two fingers on the back of her neck and commanded all the pain to go.  She shifted her neck from side to side to check it.  She smiled and said, “Actually, I can’t really tell right now.”

I knew all the pain had left, but she didn’t want to admit it.  A few seconds later, Alex tells her he saw her leg grow out and checked her legs again and both saw they were still even.  =)

I have been working with these people for three years now and have shared my faith with them before, multiple times, but I was never able to demonstrate it until now.  I am excited for the future and know great things will continue to happen in my work place.  Thank you Jesus!  The gospel is really really good news.  Believe it.