I am a Spirit…

I don’t like fluff.

I grew up going to church every Sunday hearing all the bible stories and the parables of Jesus over and over. I got all the gold stars and memorized the weekly verses — I was a good church kid — but to what end?

Some time during high school I started thinking, “Is this it? Is this the epitome of the “Christian life” that Jesus demonstrated?”

I didn’t want “good information,” I wanted my life to change… I wanted to actually look like Jesus and have the same impact He had.

I remember thinking, “Why does the life Jesus demonstrated and the effect He had on so many people seem so different and far-fetched compared to what I am taught to live at church?”

Why did Jesus hang out with sinners and tax-collectors, but we gather in a church building every week?

Why did Jesus see miracles all the time, yet it’s unheard of in churches today?

Why do I feel like I have to try to love people when I’m taught it’s supposed to be normal for the believer?

Why do I feel like I have to try to not sin when I’m taught that I’m supposed to be free from sin?

Will I ever get free from all these issues in my life? My insecurities? My fears? My dysfunctions?

Why does it constantly feel like I’m trying and trying only to fail more?

Is it really possible to live free? Because I don’t feel free… am I missing something?

Is it really possible to live free from guilt, shame, and condemnation?

Why do I feel like a failure in so many regards?

Am I really free from my past? If so, how do I get there?

Is it really possible to love the way Jesus loved?

Is it really possible to heal the sick, cast out demons, raise the dead?

Is it really possible to know the will of God and demonstrate it?

If the enemy is really defeated, why do I feel like I’m constantly under attack?

Why do I often feel defeated, rather than victorious?

If ‘perfect love casts out fear’, why do I still deal with fear?

Is it possible to get off this “roller coaster”?

Is it possible to not be so shaken by people, circumstances, and my failures?

Is it possible to have unshakable faith?

These are the questions I had. These questions led to a burning dissatisfaction with the “Christianity” that I was taught.

The answers to those questions are the reason why I started this blog — to share what I have learned.

The life that Jesus led wasn’t supposed to be an unreachable reality and it wasn’t meant to be a mystery either.

Jesus said, “he who believes in me, the works that I do he will also do; and greater works… because I go to my Father” (John 14:12).

The problem in modern Christianity is that we’ve made it a lot more complicated than it ought to be. So complicated that you have to go to seminary in order to ‘adequately’ understand and teach it. When in fact, the disciples of Jesus were all young teenagers who were ‘unlearned’ (Acts 4:13).

There is such a lack of simple and practical teaching about Jesus and who He is in us in the church today, and it’s what Paul warned against (2 Cor 11:3). Simple things like renewing your mind and identity in Christ were phrases that I constantly grew up hearing but never clearly explained.

My hope is that you will grow and be transformed as a result of coming to my site.

My hope is that I will be able to help you walk in the freedom, abundance, and inheritance that Jesus gave us.

My hope is that you will learn to walk out the gospel, not just hear and know about it, so that you become a living epistle known and read by all men, confident in re-presenting Jesus to the world.